Venting: Good for You, Not Always the Best for Others.



Everyone has their inner demons. No matter how slight or extreme, everyone IS fighting their own battle.



Venting. We all do it, no matter how old we are. A baby cries to whoever can hear her when she doesn't get the things she needs. A teenager vents to her friends when her parents don't let her do what she wants when she wants. The college students vents to her older peers when she needs some advice about the transition from childhood to adulthood....

Right here and now, I am the college student who needs help. 

I thought I knew everything when I graduated high school. I thought everything would just fall into place as soon as I touched that diploma. That the right school would find me, and the right career would be calling my name. That all my friends I had been friends with for so long would always be there. That the love of my life would come into my life and sweep me off of my feet and we would live happily ever after. That everything would be as I expected and hoped it would be. 

REALITY CAME IN; And that’s when I got the worst check.

Everything is not as easy as I always thought it to be. Life is actually quite opposite. It’s work. And although I always knew it would be work, I didn't think adulthood would be THIS difficult.

• That school that was supposed to find me: I found IT; although I am not entirely sure that it is the right one for me.  
• That career that was supposed to be calling my name: It hasn't. I am thankfully working two part time jobs in hopes that I will find THE job somehow, somewhere. 
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• The friends that I grew up thinking would always be there: We all have grown apart and have become different people; Different people that sadly don't mesh together. 
• The love of my life that was supposed to come into my life and sweep me off my feet: I have my prince charming who is a wonderful person I can turn to with anything. But even in that, there will always be some flaws in paradise.

I have tried venting in so many different ways and nothing seems to work for me. I have tried talking with people about it, and it helps sometimes, other times it just makes things worse. I have tried ignoring it (don't do that, it only makes it EXTREMELY worse). I have even tried the good ol' counting 1-10 method. That has seemed to help a little more, but even with that, I can only spend so much time counting 1-10. It always seems that in the process of my venting, I am hurting not only myself, but other people around me.

I want to try and do something constructive with my anger, sadness, happiness, or anything in between. The difficult part is I only have so much money to spend on trying to do things that I think might help, just to find that it didn't really help at all.

After seeing so many people use blogs for different things, I am deciding that instead of taking my emotions out on other people, or other useless means of dealing with such things, I am going to work really hard at putting my emotions to words. Trying to see and find the positive even when the light at the end of the tunnel seems so dim.

I decided against a journal or diary because I never could be motivated to write down what I was feeling in those without feeling slightly ridiculous. Maybe in my journey of finding out about myself, I could help others out too. This is why I am choosing to make it accessible to those who are, or know of someone, going through the same things in life that I am.

I would never intentionally hurt anyone in the process of my dealings, but even in life, someone will always be hurt about something you are doing.

This is going to be interesting :).



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